:( dad I miss u :(

I’ve heard it’ll get better or it’ll get easier for the past 13 years and I'm actually wondering, does it? Does that aching, missing feeling ever go away? Do I ever stop being jealous or loathe the ones that have what I don't? I’m not a hateful person but jeesh. Life is just so unfair. It’s sooo hard not to get atleast a little jealous of the lives others live.

Not saying I need a gold spoon but f*ck, throw me a bone every once and a while!

Grief follows me everyday and i try to not let it take over but when it hits, it hits in waves and as corny as it is, i drown in it. I just miss my dad so much you guys.

I was that stereotypical daddy’s girl. For sure where i got my spoiled and every guy has to treat me like a princess attitude. He was just my best friend. It’s crazy thinking about your best friend, you know everything about them. I can’t even remember his voice. His smell from his hugs. I have no videos. It’s mindblowing that someone who had some part of bringing me into this world is a distant memory.

life is so unfair

life is weird

life :(

𖡼.𖤣𖥧𖡼.𖤣𖥧 FALL BINGO 𖡼.𖤣𖥧𖡼.𖤣𖥧

I'M SO EXCITED FOR FALL!!!

I will update yall with a completed bingo once fall is over! I'm hoping to atleast get a bingo!

Anything on your Fall Bucket list your hoping to finish or try, let me know in the comments! <3

rain days & hairy mosquitoes

Hello friends!!

The weather is starting to get cooler in Minnesota and I am LOVING it!! I have been getting such cute fall clothes and accessories lately! (Haul post coming soon!) Walmart has really upped their clothing game and the thrift stores in my town have been sooo good. I try to dress cuter in the fall. During Summer, I just want to be comfy and not a sweaty beast.

It was pretty rainy here so we had a really chill weekend. Friday, we went thrifting and I got the cutest rain jacket!! Later, I baked a bunch of caramel puff corn and some homemade dog treats for Cleo. Saturday, we went to a really cool place called “The Hairy Mosquito”. It's a trading place that also has a bunch of buildings you can explore. I can’t really describe the place, it’s very unique. I recommend if you're in Minnesota!! Then today, we went to Walmart & Aldi to get groceries (mostly clothes for me hahaha) then came home to watch the Vikings win. Skol!

I’m starting to love these simple weekends. I get a little jealous sometimes when i see people my age out doing fun, crazy things. For awhile though, i couldn't going out without drinking and when i drink, i drink to basically black out. horrible, i know! Plus, I was always waking up with the worst hangxiety. I couldn’t remember what I said or did. I couldn’t go about my day, I just wanted to sleep and forget everything. I would be so worried people were mad at me or i embarrassed myself. Now, i dont really feel like drinking or going out and my only worry is if my bread is going to turn out. :) I love it.

Till next time friends <3 (I’m trying to think of a posting schedule for here, i feel bad popping in and out ya know? i will update yall. Duh!! <3)

What was your favorite thing you did this weekend? Mine was finding that cutie rain jacket and baking!!

"The Hairy Mosquito" 9/19/26

short post!

Hello Angels!!! <3 <3 <3

Just wanted to update on Cleo - She’s now doing AMAZING!!!

Her stitches got infected inside her little belly from when she got spayed. She’s on meds and is back to her crazy self. But omg, my poor baby!!!!!!! I just never want her to be in pain!!

How’s everyone’s week going so far? I’m hoping this work week goes by smoothly. I took yesterday off to go to the vet in case Cleo had to get surgery or something major. I haven’t been to work since Thursday, I feel so behind now!!

Sending everyone good vibes for the week <3 <3

Talk soon!!!

glass half full

Sorry I’ve been away for a few days… Life has been, well, life.

I recently celebrated two years at my job and with that came a raise! YAY! This job has been so good to me, and I truly enjoy the people I work with. Here’s to many more years!

In some sad news, our neighbor Leland has cancer, and he doesn’t think he is going to make it to the end of September. He was the very first person to introduce himself when we moved into the neighborhood, and he has been the best neighbor ever since.My boyfriend has been helping him fix up his house so he can sell it. To repay him, Leland gave my boyfriend his car. We are incredibly grateful, but I would much rather have more days with Leland. :(

In more sad news, my perfect angel Cleo, my dog is not doing well. We noticed yesterday that she wasn’t acting like herself, so we’ve been watching her closely. Unfortunately, she took a turn today. :( She's resting and we're watching for any drastic changes. We’re hoping to get her an appointment first thing tomorrow morning so we can learn more. I’m trying so hard not to let my mind go to the worst possible place, but it’s incredibly difficult. She's a strong girl and everything is going to be okay.

Please send all of your love and positive energy our way! <3 <3

I’ll keep you guys updated. Until next time, friends!!

Who's hiring??????

Tell me why i run into town quick and come back to work to find my coworker has his DIRTY, WET and STINKY socks on the space heater in my office to dry them out!!!!!!! My whole office smells like a boys locker room and i wanna cry. He then tries to offer me an amish baked cookie.

clocking out of summer 𖦹

I made a post earlier about how tired i have been lately through the work week and just in general, boy was i right!! We went out for lunch, i regretted it instantly. It has been so hard to stay awake lately! At work, out with friends, at home. I have been surviving off of sugar free red bulls and honestly, even those could kick it up a notch! I'm so excited for fall to get here but, i really hope seasonal depression isn't hitting me early this year. These work weeks have been kicking my a$$. I need a vacation. The days are long and i'm exhausted!!

Sunday Funday ☼

There is nothing better than a clean house, fresh sheets and a good show to watch on a beautiful sunday. Hope everyone had a wonderful week! <3 I celebrated my friends 23rd birthday and that took me out for the whole weekend. lol i'm starting to not mind being home on the weekends. I will admit, i do get fomo like why am i not out with other people my age?? but also now that i'm paying rent and bills, your girl is gonna get her moneys worth!! I dont really have much planned for this upcoming week. just work. I've just been so dang tired lately so i'm just hoping my energy picks up a little. Here's to another week! We got this, girlies!! Did you do anything fun over the weekend or have fun upcoming plans? I'd love to know!